RED PIXEL

I lasted just a few hours over 13 days with the RED HYDROGEN MACHINE before I just had too many things that annoyed me, all piled up. I knew this previous Monday was the final day I could do an exchange. I went down at lunch and swapped it out for another black Pixel 3. I set it up and the next day it was still having issues with the authentication process for initial setup. I went out and got the box to give them the SIM number and realized they gave me the 64GB version, not the 132GB. I didn’t even know there was a 64GB version, I thought it just came in 128.

It took me until Friday Evening to finally get the situation resolved. It’s ultimately my fault for not paying attention to the details when I was handed the case. Apparently they had been out of the 128gb version and he just floated giving me the 64gb to see if I would take it. The whole process went by without mentioning how many gigs it was and I was pretty annoyed.

One of the customer service people I talked to, about half way through, just stopped talking about ways it could theoretically be resolved, and started trying to sell me a tablet instead. I argued for four or five sentences before I realized this has just devolved into an entire waste of time. Then I closed it out and moved on with my life.

Thankfully, the person I called on the phone, was awesome. They explained to me everything that had gone on and why people were seeing and having problems. They contacted their supervisor and explained to them. They called to some local stores to see if anybody had the black version and then just said it would be easier if she just set it up to be shipped to me. No problem at all.

So, all is well that ends well, they say.

The Dream

You and me, an hour alone, behind closed doors with my bed and some towels.

Wait, what?

Friday night I had a lucid dream. I lived in a coast, don’t know if ocean or great lake. I suspect ocean, because the coast was mountainous terrain. After I learned I was dreaming and started fucking around in it, I found myself in a drive through. The dream had already been quite an adventure, including looting storage in caves with a friend, finding tons of cool shit, and making an escape.

But I was going to get food, without a clue what I wanted, The guy behind me kept getting right up on my ass, like inches away. So I took off and spun around and got behind him. Dude had made me furious.

After he gave his order, I was distracted just long enough for him to get his and start to drive off before I finished mine. I tore after him and in the process, started essentially driving like grand theft auto – knocking cars out of my way and keeping physics on my side so my car was essentially perfect as others were knocked out of the way, smashed to shit and hitting pedestrians.

Once I caught up to and t-boned the asshole, I killed all 3 guys in the car with a gun I had on me, then jumped a few hundred feet into the air and darted off. I landed in a back yard somewhere and was debating where to go next – somebody came out of the back door, and I killed them with a tool that was on the deck near them – so I took off just above tree level and darted around until I found another place to sit – stupid me, there were 2 people there and I killed them too, trying to get away without witnesses

finally i ended up somewhere secluded, called a friend and asked her if she had any ideas of how to stash me for a few days until i could make a cleaner escape and she works in a mental ward. so she had me meet her at the elevator to the south entrance, and put me in one of the empty rooms. she just told people i was a new patient they had to keep an eye on and i had to be secluded.

now, i’ve noticed when lucid dreaming, there seem to be a lot firmer karmic consequences. i usually am rather careful not to hurt anybody when fucking around, lucid dreaming. but that time, i really got brutal multiple times. so every time i hurt somebody destroying their car, or killed them, in the dream it felt like it added a heavy layer of dread and despair. It made me want to get away cleaner and without witnesses, which added more layers every time i hurt or killed somebody..

The three or four days in that hospital room felt like a thousand lifetimes where I vividly remembered every millisecond of every terrible thing i did during the short time between the fast food place and finally finding seclusion to make the phone call. I lost it, burst out of the room, ran down the hall – it happened to be when all the patients on the floor were congregated around the tv and tables, recreation-ally. they saw me and a few of them recognized me from the tv coverage of everything that happened.

I grabbed the phone from a staff member, my friend being nowhere in sight – I called the police, and in the moment of time the staff were in shock regarding what was going on, got the person on the line to understand I was in fact the person who did all that shit and gave my location- told them I wanted to turn myself in.

The staff grabbing me and dragging me to an actual secure room to lock me down until the police arrived, is where I woke up.

The Cloud

I’m deeply depressed again and Lily wants to go do everything everywhere and all I want to do is sleep. I’ve been doing pretty good battling it and running around with her but today I think I’m just going to keep her inside and try to busy myself with things that need mental focus so I can be distracted.

That is all.

DRAGON KNUCKLED

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Vanessa Nelson Erik Smith I feel that this would confuse some children. Ok its allowed at home but not out and about. In my own personal opinion teaching a child the same thing across the board helps them to make there own judgments on life. Rather than saying it’s okay to do this at this time but not at this time
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Erik Smith I’m definitely not teaching her an ever changing list of words can’t be said. That’s laughable nonsense. But I will teach her it’s a thing society does, and teach her situations where it applies.

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Vanessa Nelson As long as she understands. But I’m just speaking from experience and working with children that are locked up in the system and working at daycares it doesnt work. Setting a clear line and not making exceptions is what a lot of kids needs. Never said all just a lot of them
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Vanessa Nelson Erik Smith depends which daycare really. I have worked at one that outside is your time to get all your energy out and then others that even though we are outside we should use a so called inside outside voice. Therefore those are the rules set in place by the facility.
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Vanessa Nelson I understand what you are implying but how do you know that the same situation you are explaining to your child of when and when not is the proper time to act or say things is used in the same situation when you are not around? Clear example of the parent I was referring to in this post communicates with curse words like she has no knowledge of any other words existing in the human language. But when it comes to her children oh they would never talk like that. When she’s not around they talk in the exact same manner. And if you bring it to her attention that her children acted in such a way its oh they would never do that they know better. How can a child know better? Just because you as a parent told them don’t do this but its okay for me to do this. There’s no clear line set. Leading by example builds good behaviors
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Vanessa Nelson Erik Smith I’m not anti profanity. I am more into thinking of another word to express your feelings. I like to challenge people who use those words to come up with something else. Widen your vocabulary.
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Vanessa Nelson Its like a good portion of the music we listen to today. When there are certain words in songs you dont notice them from an adult perspective but once having children and listening from their view point its like wow I didnt realize how bad this song really was. This can be applied to many other things in everyday life
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  • Vanessa Nelson Erik Smith 🤔 that’s condescendingHide or report this
  • Erik Smith I don’t see how. I teach them society has strange rules you have to follow – but to follow them anyway because it’s less bullshit to deal with.Edit or delete this
  • Erik Smith I’d rather teach reality than take part in the bullshit. I’m not brainwashing her with religion either.Edit or delete this
  • Erik Smith Did you mean contradictory?Edit or delete this
  • Vanessa Nelson Erik Smith I feel that this would confuse some children. Ok its allowed at home but not out and about. In my own personal opinion teaching a child the same thing across the board helps them to make there own judgments on life. Rather than saying it’s okay to do this at this time but not at this timeHide or report this
  • Vanessa Nelson Yes I meant contradictingHide or report this
  • Erik Smith Vanessa Nelson my child is intelligent. I am consistent. I explain why.Edit or delete this
  • Erik Smith I’m definitely not teaching her an ever changing list of words can’t be said. That’s laughable nonsense. But I will teach her it’s a thing society does, and teach her situations where it applies.

    Just like you don’t be loud in houses like you do outside. Everything is situational.Edit or delete this
  • Vanessa Nelson As long as she understands. But I’m just speaking from experience and working with children that are locked up in the system and working at daycares it doesnt work. Setting a clear line and not making exceptions is what a lot of kids needs. Never said all just a lot of them1Hide or report this
  • Erik Smith Vanessa Nelson I agree with you. At daycare there’s a hard line she can’t use them.Edit or delete this
  • Erik Smith Vanessa Nelson I’m sure at daycare there are things you can do outside that you can’t do inside. Right?Edit or delete this
  • Vanessa Nelson Erik Smith depends which daycare really. I have worked at one that outside is your time to get all your energy out and then others that even though we are outside we should use a so called inside outside voice. Therefore those are the rules set in place by the facility.Hide or report this
  • Erik Smith Vanessa Nelson so you can climb on things and run around inside like outside at some places you work?Edit or delete this
  • Vanessa Nelson I didn’t refer to those because those seem like obvious things that a daycare would not tolerate.Hide or report this
  • Erik Smith Vanessa Nelson that’s what I’m saying. That’s all I’m saying. Situational.Edit or delete this
  • Vanessa Nelson I understand what you are implying but how do you know that the same situation you are explaining to your child of when and when not is the proper time to act or say things is used in the same situation when you are not around? Clear example of the parent I was referring to in this post communicates with curse words like she has no knowledge of any other words existing in the human language. But when it comes to her children oh they would never talk like that. When she’s not around they talk in the exact same manner. And if you bring it to her attention that her children acted in such a way its oh they would never do that they know better. How can a child know better? Just because you as a parent told them don’t do this but its okay for me to do this. There’s no clear line set. Leading by example builds good behaviors1Hide or report this
  • Erik Smith Vanessa Nelson it’s absolutely simple:

    Those are “at home words” – no where else. And my daughter’s vocabulary is extensive

    That’s sad somebody send to have a kid that only understands and uses profanityEdit or delete this
  • Erik Smith I suspect if video was shown that kind of parent would still find excuses to makeEdit or delete this
  • Vanessa Nelson I’m sure excuses would still be made no matter what the scenario consisted of. 

    But if consistency works in your favor, then I say carry on. But as I see in regards to other children they dont know the difference and obviously the parents dont either.Hide or report this
  • Erik Smith Vanessa Nelson are you anti profanity?

    I wouldn’t be surprised if a good section of kids are raised like mine. They’ve never heard her cuss one time and she’s been in daycare almost two years.Edit or delete this
  • Vanessa Nelson Erik Smith I’m not anti profanity. I am more into thinking of another word to express your feelings. I like to challenge people who use those words to come up with something else. Widen your vocabulary.1Hide or report this
  • Erik Smith Vanessa Nelson widen vocabulary by cutting out words ;)Edit or delete this
  • Erik Smith They view amuses me greatlyEdit or delete this
  • Vanessa Nelson No need to cut out the word. Just think of something more positive1Hide or report this
  • Erik Smith Tomato tomato :)Edit or delete this
  • Vanessa Nelson Its like a good portion of the music we listen to today. When there are certain words in songs you dont notice them from an adult perspective but once having children and listening from their view point its like wow I didnt realize how bad this song really was. This can be applied to many other things in everyday life1Hide or report this

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  • Vanessa Nelson Erik Smith 🤔 that’s condescendingHide or report this
  • Erik Smith I don’t see how. I teach them society has strange rules you have to follow – but to follow them anyway because it’s less bullshit to deal with.Edit or delete this
  • Erik Smith I’d rather teach reality than take part in the bullshit. I’m not brainwashing her with religion either.Edit or delete this
  • Erik Smith Did you mean contradictory?Edit or delete this
  • Vanessa Nelson Erik Smith I feel that this would confuse some children. Ok its allowed at home but not out and about. In my own personal opinion teaching a child the same thing across the board helps them to make there own judgments on life. Rather than saying it’s okay to do this at this time but not at this timeHide or report this
  • Vanessa Nelson Yes I meant contradictingHide or report this
  • Erik Smith Vanessa Nelson my child is intelligent. I am consistent. I explain why.Edit or delete this
  • Erik Smith I’m definitely not teaching her an ever changing list of words can’t be said. That’s laughable nonsense. But I will teach her it’s a thing society does, and teach her situations where it applies.

    Just like you don’t be loud in houses like you do outside. Everything is situational.Edit or delete this
  • Vanessa Nelson As long as she understands. But I’m just speaking from experience and working with children that are locked up in the system and working at daycares it doesnt work. Setting a clear line and not making exceptions is what a lot of kids needs. Never said all just a lot of them1Hide or report this
  • Erik Smith Vanessa Nelson I agree with you. At daycare there’s a hard line she can’t use them.Edit or delete this
  • Erik Smith Vanessa Nelson I’m sure at daycare there are things you can do outside that you can’t do inside. Right?Edit or delete this
  • Vanessa Nelson Erik Smith depends which daycare really. I have worked at one that outside is your time to get all your energy out and then others that even though we are outside we should use a so called inside outside voice. Therefore those are the rules set in place by the facility.Hide or report this
  • Erik Smith Vanessa Nelson so you can climb on things and run around inside like outside at some places you work?Edit or delete this
  • Vanessa Nelson I didn’t refer to those because those seem like obvious things that a daycare would not tolerate.Hide or report this
  • Erik Smith Vanessa Nelson that’s what I’m saying. That’s all I’m saying. Situational.Edit or delete this
  • Vanessa Nelson I understand what you are implying but how do you know that the same situation you are explaining to your child of when and when not is the proper time to act or say things is used in the same situation when you are not around? Clear example of the parent I was referring to in this post communicates with curse words like she has no knowledge of any other words existing in the human language. But when it comes to her children oh they would never talk like that. When she’s not around they talk in the exact same manner. And if you bring it to her attention that her children acted in such a way its oh they would never do that they know better. How can a child know better? Just because you as a parent told them don’t do this but its okay for me to do this. There’s no clear line set. Leading by example builds good behaviors1Hide or report this
  • Erik Smith Vanessa Nelson it’s absolutely simple:

    Those are “at home words” – no where else. And my daughter’s vocabulary is extensive

    That’s sad somebody send to have a kid that only understands and uses profanityEdit or delete this
  • Erik Smith I suspect if video was shown that kind of parent would still find excuses to makeEdit or delete this
  • Vanessa Nelson I’m sure excuses would still be made no matter what the scenario consisted of. 

    But if consistency works in your favor, then I say carry on. But as I see in regards to other children they dont know the difference and obviously the parents dont either.Hide or report this
  • Erik Smith Vanessa Nelson are you anti profanity?

    I wouldn’t be surprised if a good section of kids are raised like mine. They’ve never heard her cuss one time and she’s been in daycare almost two years.Edit or delete this
  • Vanessa Nelson Erik Smith I’m not anti profanity. I am more into thinking of another word to express your feelings. I like to challenge people who use those words to come up with something else. Widen your vocabulary.1Hide or report this
  • Erik Smith Vanessa Nelson widen vocabulary by cutting out words ;)Edit or delete this
  • Erik Smith They view amuses me greatlyEdit or delete this
  • Vanessa Nelson No need to cut out the word. Just think of something more positive1Hide or report this
  • Erik Smith Tomato tomato :)Edit or delete this
  • Vanessa Nelson Its like a good portion of the music we listen to today. When there are certain words in songs you dont notice them from an adult perspective but once having children and listening from their view point its like wow I didnt realize how bad this song really was. This can be applied to many other things in everyday life1Hide or report this

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  • Vanessa Nelson Erik Smith 🤔 that’s condescendingHide or report this
  • Erik Smith I don’t see how. I teach them society has strange rules you have to follow – but to follow them anyway because it’s less bullshit to deal with.Edit or delete this
  • Erik Smith I’d rather teach reality than take part in the bullshit. I’m not brainwashing her with religion either.Edit or delete this
  • Erik Smith Did you mean contradictory?Edit or delete this
  • Vanessa Nelson Erik Smith I feel that this would confuse some children. Ok its allowed at home but not out and about. In my own personal opinion teaching a child the same thing across the board helps them to make there own judgments on life. Rather than saying it’s okay to do this at this time but not at this timeHide or report this
  • Vanessa Nelson Yes I meant contradictingHide or report this
  • Erik Smith Vanessa Nelson my child is intelligent. I am consistent. I explain why.Edit or delete this
  • Erik Smith I’m definitely not teaching her an ever changing list of words can’t be said. That’s laughable nonsense. But I will teach her it’s a thing society does, and teach her situations where it applies.

    Just like you don’t be loud in houses like you do outside. Everything is situational.Edit or delete this
  • Vanessa Nelson As long as she understands. But I’m just speaking from experience and working with children that are locked up in the system and working at daycares it doesnt work. Setting a clear line and not making exceptions is what a lot of kids needs. Never said all just a lot of them1Hide or report this
  • Erik Smith Vanessa Nelson I agree with you. At daycare there’s a hard line she can’t use them.Edit or delete this
  • Erik Smith Vanessa Nelson I’m sure at daycare there are things you can do outside that you can’t do inside. Right?Edit or delete this
  • Vanessa Nelson Erik Smith depends which daycare really. I have worked at one that outside is your time to get all your energy out and then others that even though we are outside we should use a so called inside outside voice. Therefore those are the rules set in place by the facility.Hide or report this
  • Erik Smith Vanessa Nelson so you can climb on things and run around inside like outside at some places you work?Edit or delete this
  • Vanessa Nelson I didn’t refer to those because those seem like obvious things that a daycare would not tolerate.Hide or report this
  • Erik Smith Vanessa Nelson that’s what I’m saying. That’s all I’m saying. Situational.Edit or delete this
  • Vanessa Nelson I understand what you are implying but how do you know that the same situation you are explaining to your child of when and when not is the proper time to act or say things is used in the same situation when you are not around? Clear example of the parent I was referring to in this post communicates with curse words like she has no knowledge of any other words existing in the human language. But when it comes to her children oh they would never talk like that. When she’s not around they talk in the exact same manner. And if you bring it to her attention that her children acted in such a way its oh they would never do that they know better. How can a child know better? Just because you as a parent told them don’t do this but its okay for me to do this. There’s no clear line set. Leading by example builds good behaviors1Hide or report this
  • Erik Smith Vanessa Nelson it’s absolutely simple:

    Those are “at home words” – no where else. And my daughter’s vocabulary is extensive

    That’s sad somebody send to have a kid that only understands and uses profanityEdit or delete this
  • Erik Smith I suspect if video was shown that kind of parent would still find excuses to makeEdit or delete this
  • Vanessa Nelson I’m sure excuses would still be made no matter what the scenario consisted of. 

    But if consistency works in your favor, then I say carry on. But as I see in regards to other children they dont know the difference and obviously the parents dont either.Hide or report this
  • Erik Smith Vanessa Nelson are you anti profanity?

    I wouldn’t be surprised if a good section of kids are raised like mine. They’ve never heard her cuss one time and she’s been in daycare almost two years.Edit or delete this
  • Vanessa Nelson Erik Smith I’m not anti profanity. I am more into thinking of another word to express your feelings. I like to challenge people who use those words to come up with something else. Widen your vocabulary.1Hide or report this
  • Erik Smith Vanessa Nelson widen vocabulary by cutting out words ;)Edit or delete this
  • Erik Smith They view amuses me greatlyEdit or delete this
  • Vanessa Nelson No need to cut out the word. Just think of something more positive1Hide or report this
  • Erik Smith Tomato tomato :)Edit or delete this
  • Vanessa Nelson Its like a good portion of the music we listen to today. When there are certain words in songs you dont notice them from an adult perspective but once having children and listening from their view point its like wow I didnt realize how bad this song really was. This can be applied to many other things in everyday life1Hide or report this

The Neighborly Routine, Pt2

So, now that I am writing this on break, and not when Lily is climbing all over me making it impossible, I can finish! She said.

Now that we moved to the current place we lived, Lily has begun throwing herself into everybody’s lives around us. On the front with us is a lady with a boy a few years older than Lily. Also I think? there’s a guy? living with her? with a boy closer to her age? but that’s an interesting thing I don’t know and don’t want to know about so I don’t ask.

Behind them is a couple who’s daughter is with them during the week. Well, the woman’s daughter. He’s cool, got me into fortnight.

Behind us is a teacher (named Michelle! I think? I think I learned her name, lol) – with a teenage daughter, a 12?? 10? year old daughter, and I think takes care of a 6 year old.

Then, there’s a couple with a daughter a couple buildings away that Lily already made friends with. She just straight walks up to people and says hi and starts talking to them. I’m shy, I smile and nod and maybe make small talk and keep moving. I have shit to do and I assume everybody else does too – I guess I’m just really not that social.

Then, too close to Christmas last year, the teacher and the girls behind us got robbed. It was a curious thing, per they trashed the mother’s room and the room right above it – but to get to the room above it, they had to go through downstairs, up the stairs, pass other rooms going down the hallway, and then tossed that room.

I offered to help all I could, gave the oldest one a piece of jewelry that I didn’t like and she said she liked it so I gave it to her. I installed cameras and gave them access to the 3 outside ones but I don’t know if they ever bothered to set it up.

Hopefully all goes well because we all like where we live. I just get nervous because of the past. Also, we have a hottub, so I really don’t want to move. lol.

The Neighborly Routine

In the past I was always the type who knew everybody for a few houses or apartments or whatever, in any direction. Then, we lived in Bluff’s Apartments in Council Bluffs. I did know most of the people in the building, including the crazy hot neighbor next door who, well, long stories there.

There was a group I hung out with a little from work directly across from us. There was also a group that knew the previously mentioned group, across the way to the left. That one I had been to probably five times total. But, the cops had visited my apartment at least twenty times asking questions about various happenings at that place. It was so tiring having to seriously convince police and show evidence even once that no, I wasn’t there, I didn’t see anything, I didn’t hear anything, I wasn’t even home when it happened. I Don’t know who kept telling them apparently I was best friends with two of the people who lived there. I wasn’t.

So, every time after that from 2005-2018, I actively tried to avoid meeting or talking to neighbors wherever i lived after. Even to the point, there was a super charming girl who lived up the street from my mom, who would stop her car and talk to me while I was mowing. Mowing. It’s hot and humid up there. So I was dirty and sweaty and really not in the mood to talk. But she’d often stop and say hi and talk for a period. She invited me to come up after I finished, have some tea, relax. I never knew exactly where she lived, though I’m sure I could figure it out considering about 2 blocks up the street was a dead end. The road did split into the last block, so essentially it would have only been 3 blocks total to look for her car. Like five seconds in my car, really. But no. I just didn’t want to. Totally burned out on drama.

So, moved to Phoenix in 2012. First thing I noticed was there are so many absolutely gorgeous people every six feet in this metro, I just, I don’t even. The first complex we lived in, an amazingly sweet and beautiful spanish woman lived under us. A mom with her prick of a prick son lived above us with his girlfriend who I have no fuck clue why she stayed with him, a terrible rapper producer across the wall behind us who NEVER FUCKING CLEANED AND WE HAD ROACHES EXCLUSIVELY BECAUSE OF HIM – and a dude who loved a fake marijuana i can’t recall the name of, spice? cool dude though, lived above and across from us. he’s the only person i really talked to more than three times because he’s the kind of social, you’re going to talk to him. haha.

Second place we lived out here, yuppy complex like crazy. It’s where I really started to notice, pretty much every race will say hi to each-other and to me mutually, but white people. I’m white, ok? bald motherfucker, white dude. Blue eyes, ok? But I swear, way too many white people all over the heavier populated parts of the metro, very rarely even make eye contact with other people they don’t know, or whatever the fuck the deal is. I’d sit around various spots and just watch it. But other races for the vast majority, social as hell. Maybe something happened here before I moved here that I don’t know about. Sheriff Joe? Who the fuck knows. I don’t know. But I barely almost started talking to this awkward blonde who took her dog do the dog park we lived right next to 90x a day. Just, kept to myself. Even though there was an exhibitionist nude chick who lived next to us the last few months which, naked with a huge smile, I VERY consciously tried to ignore hahahaha. Just, didn’t want to know. She could be cool as shit, just proud of her amazing body and wanted the whole world to see through her open ground level windows hahhahahaha. whatever. anyway.

So, then we move out of town, 3rd place in the metro, by sun city of all places. Fuck. We had generally lived in pretty college centered places so far. Colleges saturating all over the two places. But this third place? Naw. Not really anywhere near. It was all old detached people for the most part.

Typing that I remembered something I brought up just a couple months into living in Arizona. We all worked with mostly people from out of town. But, all of us also had a couple people we worked with who had grown up here. We also had been networking and meeting people out and about – talking to people at grocery stores and shit. Trying to learn about the area and get a feel for shit. Very different place here in many ways.

I asked if my brother in law and wife had noticed how easy it is to tell if somebody we just met a few minutes into the conversation was raised here, or moved here from elsewhere. Not because of dialect or accents or anything like that. It was almost exclusively because after just 10 or 15 sentences, you’ll hear at least two or three things from locals that makes your brain go “….. what? the fuck? did you just say?” and you ask a question like, “did you just say you took the bus because your socks were feeling good and you wanted to sit instead of walk six blocks because your socks felt good on your feet?” *ACTUAL. FUCKING. CONVERSATION.* and yeah. totally what they said. apologetically. And that was the first signal something was a little off. Then that example later said something about wishing she could, i forget, something super basic on every phone, even iphones. and i was like, can i see your phone? did it in like 2 seconds, and OMG I DIDN’T’ KNOW IT DID THAT

Yeah. We thought for a while, maybe we’re just having bad luck meeting a bunch of stupid fucking locals. It became a game for us. After a few years we just settled in to, yeah, the vast majority of people raised here in the areas we lived in (phoenix, tempe, mesa, tolleson, sun city, peoria) – real fucking brain dead.

Anyhow, now we had a big shock, 3rd place we lived. TRUMP, CITY. I know, this is a red state. Real red. A dumb fuck openly racist shit-stain like Sheriff Joe got reelected something like eight or nine trillion times. I shouldn’t be surprised. But I had never been surrounded by so many just, crazy crazy fucks, in my entire life. Just batshit crazy.

One dude who lived across and down a bit, I made the mistake of talking to him more than once. The third? or forth time? he was talking about those stupid fucking liberals and their gun hating ways. I let him talk a bit. He asked what my view was on it. I said, I don’t understand why media makes up so much shit about the left hating guns. He was like are you not paying attention? I combination started mocking the nonsense from the right about people wanting to take all guns away, and explaining that pretty much everyone i’ve ever met who’s a leftie either owns guns, loves guns, or respects them. I can count the people on the left i’ve met, out of the many thousands, who don’t want guns themselves ever, or want them banned, on two hands. Seriously, easily less than ten. Sure, seems like there are a ton online and if you listen to what the media says. But this is fucking America. Guns are everywhere. I love guns. You love guns. Your neighbors love guns.

But anyway. anywho, anyhow, it got to the point I don’t remember what I was saying but I remember he said “and what makes you so sure you can say all this shit and I won’t shoot you in the head?” and I confidently said “oh because you’re a good guy with a gun.”

He was in his 30s – his DAD told me he wasn’t going to be talking to me anymore lol. Just one of millions of examples – we know who the real snowflakes are.

So, needless to say I kept to myself as much as I could, even though I was surrounded by loud opinionated empty heads.

So, we made it to where we live now. A much less ridiculous place. Kids everywhere. So many fewer terrifying looking people lurking around in broad daylight 24/7. Tons of kids. Kids every three feet. All over. This was a big reason we chose here, because Lily is getting to the age she wants infinite friends. And there seemed to be infinite kids around here.

This took forever to write because my 3 year old is CRAZY hahahha… will continue tomorrow

MOTOROLA => GOOGLE

Well. Fuck. Fuck, fuck-fuck. Fuck.

I was looking at phones at work while Dre was talking about probably getting a new iphone …… none of them had any better stats than my 2 year old Moto Z Force. Maybe a tiny bit, here and there. I like this phone so I didn’t see any reason to bother with another one. And I just paid this one off so why would I?

One thing I really liked about newer phones that mine DIDN’T have was wireless charging. So, I ordered a 12 dollar piece to attach to my phone and two 15 dollar charging circle things. about 20-30 minutes before they got delivered THE USB PORT ON MY PHONE COMPLETELY QUIT WORKING. Completely? Well, let us go back in time.

I had been complaining to verizon about the battery life. Since the summer 2017 update it’s been shit on a stick, for battery life. It’s the only complaint I have with my phone. It used to be 20-36 hours, easy, between charges. 16-18 inbetween happened a few times but that was entirely rare. So they sent me a new one. Didn’t matter, wasn’t the hardware. It was the OS version. No idea what the deal was, but it didn’t matter how little I had running or installed. It still burned it down really fucking fast. I would get to work, get out of my car with it at 100%, and with light use it would shed 20% of battery in about an hour. Retarded.

I got water on it. About two weeks after getting the fucker replacement. It was “safe” and away from the hottub but within reach. Didn’t matter. Got just enough water on it that it seeped into where the power cord (it was going to be dead if i didn’t plug it in while we were using it for a couple hours) – whatever chemical reaction happened got shit on the plug. i got most of it off but one of the two sides of the internal usb connection (usb C) didn’t work anymore. So I had to plug the power cord in one way only. And whichever that was, who knows, sometimes I had to pull it out and flip’er around and shove it back in.

Well, as luck would have it, the good side quit just as the shit was arriving. It may very well be an easy fix but I fucking loathe taking that phone apart. Who knows, maybe I’ll call around and see if anybody fixes the ports for cheap and keep the phone around. Right now it can go fuck itself.

So now I have a google pixel 3 I’m trying not to hate because it’s not my previous phone I loved for a couple years until the battery started punching itself in the face.

Rub’er Neck

I haven’t given anybody a neck/shoulder/back massage in a hell of a long time (other than the wife, and that’s down to just the areas I know bother her and she doesn’t even care about the rest, so it’s routine and a massage wand does the job 9/10th of the time anyway – and better than I ever could [or any human for that matter])

However, this isn’t about that. Though I do miss being requested into giving a bunch of people at parties massages. I used to be pretty great at them. But this is about my neck.

Monday I was riding around on the electric pallet jack. I was unloading a truck.

I was just looking around, left to right, turning my head, like any human does. I turned to look to my left and PING! A tendon/whatever on the right side of my neck felt like it pulled????? or something??? And it’s ranged from no pain to hurting like a son of a bitch ever since. I thought maybe a muscle in my shoulder was tight and was fucking with the tendon or something, so I was massaging it a lot last night. Woke up feeling pretty A-OK. But off and on through work today it’s been fucking annoying the shit out of me. It doesn’t hurt bad enough to really alter my abilities but just enough to annoy the monkey-balls off me.

That’s all, fuck you, fuck me, fuck everybody, and good night. I love you.

RAPE HAT

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I didn’t heart that. It’s a retarded, dumb ass reply.

BUT THE POINT IS VALID.

No. It’s not fucking valid.

First of all, short skirts were never, and will never be, an invitation or excuse for rape. It’s barely even an excuse to wander over and hit on them. If they look good enough to somebody to want to hit on them, probably not going to be much different between a short skirt and pants. Seriously. If you’re all about bare legs, you’re fucked up to begin with anyhow.

Secondly, my 3 year old has been wearing skirts (though I don’t like it) that are maybe an inch below the bottom of the diaper (which who the fuck designed that to begin with?) – since pretty much birth. So, we want our baby raped? Get out of here.

And in comparison to the parent tweet: the only thing that they have in common, even saying the skirt shit isn’t a moot point for being ridiculous, is that you can visually see them. So, pretty much everything you can fucking see with some stupid fuck stigma could be brought in to be equally as nonsense.

Why nonsense? Because the MAGA hats are displaying a topic. How does that give anybody the right to say or do anything? It really doesn’t. However:

I had an Obama sticker on my bumper from 2008 or so into about april 2009. The main reason I took it off was because it was clear to me the Hope and Change shit was just smooth talking. But one of the reasons that were absolutely present in mind regarding me being glad to see it removed, is because multiple times I would be aware of somebody behind me looking at the area of my car the bumper sticker was on, then starting to drive and act a fucking fool. Honking, recklessly driving around and very close to me, getting in front of me and brake checking me, and so on.

Mom had (or has?) a license plate that says a variation of God Is Love. She would be all surprised when people would deface, vandalize or otherwise damage her car. I told her it’s because of the license plate – some of the shit had satanic symbolism but I didn’t bother explaining it to her because then she would want to know how I knew (and I was already agnostic/atheist by that time) – She kept complaining about it being a Christian nation (it isn’t, nor was ever intended to be) – and that it’s her right (which it is actually) to have her religion displayed on her license plate. She just couldn’t grasp that anybody would fuck with her stuff because of something like that.

You put a subject out there that’s mildly to hotly (per MAGA is) debated, you have to be minimally intelligent enough to understand, you are giving yourself a front row seat to reactions.

Sure, skirts get reactions. So do tank tops, yoga pants, big tits in fucking sweaters, sunglasses, fucking everything. But they’re not putting a SUBJECT out there. specific.

I had a breaking bad tshirt I quit wearing because too many people were excited and trying to talk to me. I didn’t want to talk to strangers that often so I quit wearing it.

So, back to the parent tweet. You wear a MAGA hat right now in this climate, you know what you’re fucking doing. Comparing that to moot bullshit like skirt = rape is fucking retarded and no more related than anything else you can visually see.